The Credit Card I Can’t Read

A braille credit card and a season in a wheelchair changed how I see the world

When my Discover card expired, the company offered several replacement designs. I could choose a cat, a dog, flags, business logos, and a bunch of others.

Instead, Braille caught my eye.

The funny thing is, I can’t read Braille.

When the card arrived, I ran my fingers across the raised dots and realized they were completely meaningless to me. Embedded on that card is information that someone who is visually impaired could understand immediately. To me, it might as well be Morse code.

At first, I thought my new card was a novelty. Then I started thinking about all the Braille I’ve encountered over the years.

The elevator in the building where my office is located has Braille on every button. I’ve never knowingly shared the elevator with someone who was blind or visually impaired, but I’m sure I have. Most of us don’t notice accessibility features because we’re not the people who need them.

At least that’s what I used to think.

Twelve years ago, I had a medical emergency that left me hospitalized and then in rehabilitation. For about two months, I depended on a wheelchair and a walker.

Suddenly, the world looked different.

I became aware of every curb, every step, every narrow doorway, and every inaccessible entrance. Ramps and their location became important.

What I discovered was that retrofitted ramps weren’t designed into buildings. The accessible entrance was around the side, down an alley, or at the far end of a parking lot. While able-bodied people walked straight to the front door, people using wheelchairs, walkers, scooters, and canes had to travel farther to get to the same destination.

I noticed things I had never paid attention to before.

Even today, I find myself looking for ramps. Once you’ve spent time navigating the world from a wheelchair, it’s difficult not to notice how much extra effort accessibility can require.

That’s why I find my braille credit card strangely meaningful.

The raised dots don’t help me make a purchase or tell me anything I can understand, but they remind me that the world includes people whose experiences are different from mine.

Accessibility is about accommodations for a small group of people and about recognizing that all of us move through life differently. At one time, I was young and healthier. Then I recovered from surgery. Temporary conditions become permanent.

The truth is that accessibility isn’t for “other people.” Given enough time, it becomes relevant to all of us.

The Braille on my credit card serves a practical purpose for someone who cannot see. For me, it serves as a reminder that thoughtful design matters.

Inclusion is invisible until you need it, and a reminder that every person deserves the dignity of navigating the world independently.

Maybe I should learn to read Braille. Not because I expect to lose my sight anytime soon, but because understanding another person’s experience is never a wasted effort.

When I pull that card from my wallet, I run my thumb across those raised dots and think about the ramps, elevators, curb cuts, and countless other accommodations that most of us pass by without noticing.

They’re reminders that a community works best when it works for everyone.

Swedish Death Cleaning for Pack Rats

Have you heard about Swedish Death Cleaning?

Where sentimental value meets Facebook Marketplace.

There’s a television show called the “Gentle Art of Swedish Death Cleaning” where three cheerful Swedes descend upon cluttered American homes like minimalist Viking spirits.

They smile politely while staring at your collection of commemorative beer steins and ask questions that cut straight to the soul.

“Will anyone want this after you die?”

“Why do you own 17 extension cords?”

The premise is simple and terrifying. Swedish death cleaning (döstädning) is the practice of gradually getting rid of your stuff before someone else has to do it for you.

I don’t want my grieving friends and relatives to stand in my garage holding a box labeled “miscellaneous cables” and wonder if I was building a radio station or hiding evidence.

I’ve been Swedish death cleaning for years without realizing it had a name. I thought I was slowly becoming the old guy muttering, “Why do I still own this?”

The Marshall Fire accelerated the process for me. Watching entire neighborhoods go up in a puff of smoke changed my relationship with possessions in a hurry.

I started thinning out decades of sports memorabilia, political collectibles, souvenirs, and enough paper ephemera to start my own presidential library or baseball museum.

At first, it was hard.

I had convinced myself that every object contained meaning. I took pictures of everything significant. I got rid of the item and kept the memory.

“This ticket stub is history.”

“This bumper sticker might be valuable someday.”

“This faded Rockies pennant represents an era.”

If I wanted a replacement, I could buy another.

Eventually, I realized my heirs are not going to lovingly curate my life’s treasures. They’re going to rent a dumpster.

Now I’m down to the nuisance phase of death cleaning. The weird objects. The things that survive every purge because they’re too sentimental to toss.

Which brings me to the Sony micro television.

This tiny set came from my grandmother’s estate over forty years ago. She had hauled it all the way from Japan sometime in the 1960s, back when electronics from Japan felt futuristic and exotic.

The little monitor looked like something NASA might issue astronauts to watch Walter Cronkite on the moon.

I’ve carried that little TV through apartments, condos, moves, closets, shelves, storage bins, and several rounds of “I really should get rid of this.” It became less of a possession and more of a hostage situation.

The TV held me hostage.

I dug out the box and posted it on Facebook Marketplace.

Immediately, two kinds of people appeared.

The first guy messaged me within minutes.

“I can come right now.”

That’s slightly alarming. Nobody has ever urgently needed anything good from Facebook Marketplace. Usually, it’s either haunted, illegal, or both.

Then another user chimed in helpfully to explain that old electronics are worthless.

Thank you, internet stranger. That was comforting.

But the first guy arrived today, and it turns out he’s part of a group called the Colorado CRT Connection. These people rescue old cathode ray tube televisions and monitors.

They restore them, tinker with them, keep retro gaming systems alive, and host meetups that benefit the Children’s Hospital.

Who knew there was an underground network of people lovingly preserving obsolete television technology?

This guy looked at my grandmother’s tiny Sony TV the way an art dealer might inspect a lost Picasso.

“The guys are going to be so jealous.” He knew exactly what he bought.

He appreciated its history.

He was genuinely excited.

This object I’d been schlepping around for decades wasn’t junk anymore. It had found its next chapter.

That’s the beauty of Swedish death cleaning. It’s about getting rid of things and releasing them back into the wild while they still mean something to somebody.

All our treasures eventually become mysteries to the next generation.

“Why did Grandpa keep this?”

“What is this thing?”

“Can we throw this away?”

Every once in a while, the right person shows up. The object finds its tribe again.

My grandmother is smiling that her quirky little television, carried across the Pacific Ocean 60 years ago, is still sparking curiosity instead of gathering dust in my basement.

I still have a box of cables I’ll take to Goodwill soon, 2028 at the latest.

What would the Swedes think?

Reflections on Lent: A Journey Through Texas

It’s the middle of Lent. Lent is a 40-day, solemn Christian season of fasting, prayer, and repentance that begins on Ash Wednesday and ends before Easter. It honors Jesus’s 40 days in the wilderness. Common practices include giving up luxuries. I grew up as a Presbyterian and knew about Lent, but didn’t practice the rituals.

These days, I still don’t practice Lent, except to give a couple of hours each morning and respond to Lenten writing prompts. I recently returned from a long drive through the Longhorn State and didn’t forego eating beef.

Jeremiah writes that those who trust in flesh are like shrubs in the desert, unable to see relief when it comes.

Desert language is appropriate for Lent.

What gives me relief is a change of scenery.

A few hundred miles between my real world in Boulder and wherever I happen to be, life continues in Colorado without me. The inbox fills. The deadlines creep closer.

When I leave town, I get to step into someone else’s ordinary life.

I’m in Texas on my way to Galveston to shoot footage for a documentary. The first night, Amarillo was a seven-hour drive. I had to stop at the Big Texan Steak Ranch, which also has a motel where I stayed, and is also home to the 72-ounce steak challenge. Finish it in an hour, and it’s free. Fail, and you pay $72.

I didn’t attempt it. The steak would have eaten me.

Instead, I listened to five men and a woman next to me, who talked in thick drawls about their trade show. Diners are seated family style at long tables. I asked the server how many challengers down the steak with all the fixings. Oddly, she didn’t know. Curious, I found out 100,000 determined eaters try, and 10,000 get a free steak.

The next morning and seven hours later, I pulled into Fredericksburg, with its German storefronts and tidy sidewalks. There were vineyards around the area, and I ended up at the Wine Country Inn. No wine tasting, though. I like to watch the local TV news. The lead story was the Senate “Democrat” primary. Mild-mannered James Talarico defeated sound-bite firebrand, Jasmine Crockett. Meanwhile, Senator John Cornyn eked out a plurality over ultra-right challenger Ken Paxton.

Same country as Colorado. Different political weather systems. Speaking of weather systems, it’s rained nonstop since I’ve been in Texas, compared to Boulder’s drought. I’m on the Watch Duty app that sends me notices about natural disasters and notified me about a fire near Heil Ranch, a few miles north of Boulder.

Last night I ate hockbraten at Altdorf Biergarten, bacon-wrapped meatloaf smothered under mushroom gravy. My server was from Germany, with an accent thick enough to make me feel like I was in Frankfurt. I’m not a devotee of German food, but it was pretty good, very earthy.

This morning, I’ll be back on the highway, dodging flatbeds carrying wind turbine blades, wide oil field equipment parts, and enormous John Deere discs creeping down the road with occasional passing lanes.

I’ve been catching up on my audiobooks. I listened to “First Frost” by Craig Johnson, which has a Japanese incarceration camp as a backdrop. Now I’m listening to one called “White Trash” about the origins of the white and gender class systems in America that dates back to indentured servitude in England in the 16th and 17th centuries.

Travel slows down my life. Audiobooks fill the void I would otherwise fill with thoughts about whatever might be happening back home.

When Jeremiah warns about trusting in flesh, I wonder whether my leaving town is a pilgrimage or an anesthetic escape with different scenery?

Distance reminds me that the world is larger than my preoccupations. It places me inside other people’s lives and places.

No matter how many miles I add between Boulder and Galveston, I still bring myself along for the ride.

No matter where I go, there I am.

On Saturday, I turn around and head back to Boulder.

This time I’m taking a different route home.

Maybe that’s the point. Lent asks for reorientation. The inbox will be filled with the usual Spams and Scams. I still have to finish a grant application, but I will have arrived changed. How that looks, I don’t know yet.

Time does slow down. That extra space gives me a place to learn how to return.